I sometimes wonder what other people think of me but then I realise that in actual fact I don’t care what others think.  I only care about what I think of myself and at the moment its not great.  I feel and look pregnant again… believe me I’m not!!  I feel so disgusted with how I have let myself be after the weight I lost after both babies, but have managed to slip back into old ways or even new comfortable ways and its just crept back on again.

You may notice that my posts are generally about weight or feelings surrounding that… I’ve recently started watching Drag Race and the quote is “If You Can’t Love Yourself, How the Hell Are You Going to Love Somebody Else?”  and it got me thinking that truly I don’t think I do love myself.  If I did then why would I feel so shit after seeing a picture of me taken when I’m smiling yet I look back on it and just focus on how shit I look.  Its crazy even writing this that I’m even admitting this.

So how to love myself…. this is the difficult part!